Dear Anyone,

Well, I kind of messed this blog up, huh? No letters since 2015? So much for "letter's from a freshman trying to figure out the world" or whatever I wrote in my bio. I always have these grand ideas for things and then life happens and the little things, like this blog, get pushed aside.

I'm a senior in college now. I live in a studio apartment by myself. I'm graduating in December as a double major in Criminology and Law Studies and Psychology. So, a lot has changed since I was a scared little freshman writing letters to her family members that she never actually sent to them. I'm really just updating this for me, because I feel that either this blog should end with this, or have this be like a new beginning.

I still have no idea what I'm doing.

I make up these kind of jobs for myself, say that I'm going to grad school because I have to but have no idea when that's going to happen, pretend that everything is fine and like I have everything figured out. But I don't. Not even close.

There is one thing I have learned though, and that is that everyone else is faking it too. Not one adult has a single clue what's going on. I've had enough problems with my apartment complex to know that not everyone tries to work out the problem in their head before opening their mouth and speaking like I do. Not everyone is professional and organized like you think they should be and that's both comforting and frustrating.

It's comforting because then I know that this isn't just a "me" problem. That everyone is constantly learning and, hopefully, trying to better themselves.

But on the other hand, c'mon, you seriously expect me to believe that you sent me multiple emails telling me that I still had papers to sign for my lease and to "check my junk folder"? No, honey, I'm always on top of my emails, it was you who screwed up and almost lost me my apartment.

Anyway, I suddenly now have a lot to say and the last few years are playing back in my mind and I'm trying to figure out how to explain it all. I should have, like, started a blog or something and continually updated it as the important things happened instead of cramming it into one whole blog...

Maybe I'll keep this thing going. Maybe I'll just come on here when I need to vent. Maybe this'll be it, and I'll read this blog again a few years down the road and find myself thinking about the past again while getting ready for my future.

I'll end things here so I can get back to writing a cognitive psychology paper that I've been putting off. Not exactly the type of writing I want to be doing right now, but hey, I'm almost done.

Thanks for reading.

From Em, with love.